As Autumn approaches I feel a sadness, a melancholy that is unsual for me at this time of year. Usually I embrace the change of seasons with delight, but not this year. Perhaps it is because we seem to have seen so little sunshine this summer
that I don't find myself looking forward to the first frosts, the fogs rolling in across the river and the crunch of leaves underfoot.
Perhaps it's because, with the added responsiblities of running a business while my husband convalesces, we haven't spent our afternoons by the sea,
walked in the woods,
or stormed any castles.
It has been a long, a difficult summer here at Willow House and I have found myself longing for a return to a normal life. The life I led prior to the accident. The life where I would arise in the morning and on nothing more than a whim drive to Wells for breakfast at Nelsons.

The life where I would buy my vegetables and fruit from the Bury St Edmund's maket
simply because I liked going there.
Lunch at Byfords in Holt
just because I felt like it.
A normal life? Perhaps not, more like a spoilt and priveledged life but never the less my life and I want it back. What have I missed most? Bundling the kids and dogs into the car and walking around the lakes at Bawsey early in the morning when there is no one else about. You can't do that when you have to be in the office at nine.
So no I don't long for a normal life I long for a return to my exta-ordinary life. A chaotic life with no time constaints, no order, where I do what I want on nothing more than a whim.
This summer has passed me by and I regret its passing, the lost days in the sun. But instead of a sadness and a melancholy perhaps I should embrace the change, welcome Autumn with a Rosh Hashanah of my own. The start of a new season, a new year for some, new beginnings, I wonder what it will bring?